songs, but without the music

Naked in the Hall of Scholars

This poem is from a book I’m working on now, a plea for lightweight Christianity. It’s mostly prose—pithy prose, I hope—but this is a sort of poetic interlude.

Naked in the Hall of Scholars

High up in the ceiling,
     a single skylight admits the sun.
Swirls of dust show where the shaft of light passes.

Filtering down through the dusty air,
     it shines on the restless bodies below.
The scholars turn and turn, massing like starlings,
     discussing the Second Coming, so long delayed.
The sound of their voices—male voices, mostly—
     rises and falls in sonorous waves,
     tohu wabohu, chaos in a sea of sound.

They strive together, one with another,
     a number of scholars that no man can number,
     masters of ancient tongues, makers of many books.
They argue without end about the ending of the world,
     their voices convening a great tribulation.

Popes in a long line speak from beneath their white canopies,
     pontifical Latin flowing from their lips.

In a corner, Karl Barth reads from his own works,
     in German, of course, precise and authoritative,
     from the six million words of his Church Dogmatics,
     and from the five hundredth page of his commentary
          on the Epistle to the Romans.
“Will there never be an end,” he demands,
     “of all our ceaseless talk
     about the delay of the Parousia?”

Seemingly not.

I see C. S. Lewis seated, patiently expounding,
     explaining it all so a child could follow,
          further up and further in.
He meets my gaze, his eyes disappointed,
     paternal, knowing me for a Susan.
“Let’s get this over with,” he says. “Take your seat.
The question is on the board.
You have one hour.”

Oh, God! I forgot there was a test today!
And that question on the board—Christ on a cracker!
Did we have to know Greek?
And now the professor of Greek from my seminary,
     observes my struggles with sad disappointment.
I remember some Greek, surely I do,
     but who can think, with all this arguing?
More eyes turn to me, and I realize:
     I not only forgot there was a test today,
     I forgot to put on my pants.
I am naked in the hall of scholars.

Rapture me … rapture me …
     oh, why have you forsaken me?

Then it happens, my prayer oddly answered.
Gracefully I begin to rise,
     floating upward through the dusty swirls of light.
Slowly I drift, up and away.
Slowly the voices and glances recede.

Slowly I rise,
     weightless, naked, no longer ashamed,
     washed ever upward by ripples of sound from below.
The voices fade, fade to a faintness.
Hours, maybe, pass unnoticed, until
     I bump, gently and gently,
          face to face with the still, dark ceiling.

Skimming the surface of the ceiling,
     I swim toward the source of the bright shaft.
Someone has left the skylight open.
A scent from Outside reaches me, shocks me.
Surely there is peace there, a blessing of peace.
Surely the sound of a playful breeze,
     moving over the face of the waters.
2022-01-14T07:49:42-06:00January 13, 2022|0 Comments

Everupspringing

Here’s a “sermon” I preached in my church recently. I put the word in horror quotes there, because this wasn’t anything like a homily—more like a poetry slam, really. But I try not to let things get too predictable in church!

2021-09-10T14:39:17-05:00August 8, 2021|0 Comments

Samhain Song

Samhain is the old Gaelic festival that lies behind many of our modern Halloween customs. In this video, I talk a little about Samhain, and I share a new song about it.

Here’s the text of that song. (It’s actually from the last chapter of my fantasy romance, The Pastor and the Priestess.)

Samhain Song

The anxious fear, the fevered dream,
The ghostly moan, the primal scream,
The cold that grips us in the night --
The dance around the fire’s light,
To banish fear from hill and dale.
   For love can see beyond the veil,
   And glimpse, behind the graven gloom,
   A hidden heat, a hopeful beat,
   The fertile darkness of the womb.

The foolish, haunted, hating heart,
That tries to tear the world apart,
And plans and plots to bitter ends --
The circled power of our friends,
That over evil will prevail.
   For love can see beyond the veil,
   And glimpse, behind the graven gloom,
   A hidden heat, a hopeful beat,
   The fertile darkness of the womb.

The doubt that steals away the will,
The gloomy fears that self-fulfill,
The wariness to take a chance --
The spirit pleading, Come and dance,
And never be afraid to fail.
   For love can see beyond the veil,
   And glimpse, behind the graven gloom,
   A hidden heat, a hopeful beat,
   The fertile darkness of the womb.

The memory of days gone by,
The falling tear, the heavy sigh,
The burden of the loss we bear --
The new adventure waiting there,
Where love-light leads us down the trail.
   For love can see beyond the veil,
   And glimpse, behind the graven gloom,
   A hidden heat, a hopeful beat,
   The fertile darkness of the womb!
2022-02-21T10:11:34-06:00October 9, 2017|0 Comments

River Poetry

Today I’m thinking of an old poem: “Kubla Khan; or, A Vision in a Dream: A Fragment,” written by Samuel Taylor Coleridge in 1797. I’m also thinking of an even older poem: the Book of Revelation.

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(Perhaps I should apologize to those whom the title of this post fooled into expecting a clip from “Xanadu,” the 1980 roller-disco movie featuring Olivia Newton-John and Gene Kelly. But I’ll try to do something with that movie next week!)

2017-06-26T16:37:19-05:00June 26, 2017|0 Comments

Wind on the Hill

Hello, friends! I’m releasing this edition of The Merry Mystic a little early, so you can have it for Pentecost Sunday. Pentecost is a celebration of the Holy Spirit: a noise like a rushing wind, and tongues of fire, and speaking in tongues, and all that. And whenever I think of the Holy Spirit, I think of this beautiful little poem by A. A. Milne.

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2017-06-03T10:16:08-05:00June 3, 2017|4 Comments

Mothers Day Psalm

Hello, friends. Here’s a Mothers Day special, in honor of my own wonderful mother.

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Here’s the text of that version of Psalm 23.

The Lady Is My Mother

The Lady is my mother;
   I shall not want.
She tucks me in between clean sheets;
   She reads me a story.
She cleans the cut and binds on the Band-Aid;
   She combs down my hair for our name's sake.
Even though I tremble and cry out in darkness, I will waken with relief,
   For you are with me; your hand and your voice, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me with macaroni and cheese
      in the presence of my siblings;
   You set fresh milk on the table, and only gently scold me when
      My cup runneth over.
Surely love and generosity shall sustain me all the days of my life,
   And I will dwell in the house of the Lady for ever.
2017-05-14T17:15:42-05:00May 14, 2017|0 Comments

Already and Always Enough

Forgive me, Father, for I have multitasked…

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P.S. — Here’s the text of that poem.

Already and Always Enough

The hardest commandment you ever gave me, 
	dear Spirit-Friend, was this:
		to enjoy being alive, and
		to speak for the joy of being alive.
And I need your help now, because
	I’m screwing it up.
Yes, still.

I am guilty of impossible yes-ing:
	yes to one project on top of another,
	yes to writing, composing, and singing, 
	yes speaking, preaching, recording, and posting,
	yes to everyone who calls, emails, or walks into my office,
	yes, yes, yes.

I am guilty of egregious multitasking.
This past week, I worked on writing while 
	not enjoying a movie at home with my family.
I worked on a speech while
	not enjoying a hot shower.
I worried about my church while
	not enjoying lying in my warm bed.

In short, I was a fraud.
I posed as a speaker for the joy of being alive while
	not enjoying being alive.

And I was ungrateful, another great sin.
I was like a child 
	who counts up his birthday presents and then
	complains that there are not enough of them.
I wished for more hours in every day, and
	more productivity, and
	more money.
I said, in the silence of my heart,
	I need more power.

And, forgive me, but that was a prayer.
It was to you that I spoke, dear Spirit-Friend, when I said it.
To you I said, Help me, and I need more,
	but what I really meant was:
You’re not helping me enough.
What you’ve given me is not enough.
What I am is not enough.

So please, may I ask for your help again?
This time, I’ll stipulate that when I say,
	Help me,
What I really mean is,
	Help me to see how your help 
	is already and always enough.

O Spirit-Friend, please help me:
	to enjoy your abundance, 
	and to enjoy being abundant,
	and to know how it is enough, and I am enough,
		already and always.

Amen.
2017-05-10T11:12:41-05:00May 1, 2017|5 Comments

Rime of the Ancient Magi

I was about thirteen years old when I had this little epiphany: I realized that I needed to speak for the joy of being alive. Forty years later, I haven’t made all that much progress! The problem is, I can tell the truth, or I can make sense, but not both at once.

Sermons just don’t seem to work for this.  (Actually, I think the sermon is a highly overrated form of communication!) And rational language in general can be pretty inadequate for the task; “I too am untranslatable,” as Whitman said in Leaves of Grass. Whitman said this as well (this is from With Walt Whitman in Camden, Horace Traubel et. al., p. 56):

After culture has said its last say we find that the best things yet remain to be said: that the heart is still listening to have heart things said to it—the brain still listening to have brain things said to it—the faith, the spirit, the soul of man waiting to have such things of faith, spirit, the soul, said to it. Books won’t say what we must have said: try all that books may they can’t say it.

I dare say I’m not the first to experience the compulsion to say what can’t be said.  Here’s a poem about it.  (Poetry helps—a little!)

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2016-11-28T14:10:37-06:00November 28, 2016|8 Comments

The Eucharistic Twinkie

There’s no way to sugar-coat it: in this video, I read a poem and take a bite out of a Twinkie.  (You might notice a bit of a bow to Julian of Norwich at the end of the poem: hazelnut to her, Twinkie to me.)

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I think this was the first Twinkie I’ve tasted since I had a deep-fried specimen at the Bureau County Fair in Illinois, years ago.   But what do you think: can a Twinkie be full of the Spirit of God?  Is there even room in there, amid the sodium stearoyl lactylate and xanthan gum?

2016-07-25T11:56:29-05:00July 25, 2016|8 Comments
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